Those two pink lines sure showed up quickly, didn't they? You've waited and waited for the moment when that test would finally show a positive and just like that, there it is. Wait over, welcome to the journey that is bringing a human into this world. There is still so much you don't know, so much you have yet to learn. In just four years your life will be so different than it is in this moment. That sweet baby that brought those first two pink lines? Well, now she is soon to be four. She has a younger brother, and another brother on the way. Yes, you're a mom of three now. Wow. Surprised?
You're counting down the minutes until your first precious baby arrives, but please, slow down. Savor this time. Savor that moment, staring at those two pink lines. Savor each trimester, even the last one that is going to bring you incredibly swollen ankles and puffy cheeks. Soak up those days. Don't count them down, soon they'll be gone so quickly. Just a memory.
When she arrives, you are going to feel so many emotions. You are going to be overwhelmed in every possible way. You will cry tears of joy, tears of worry, tears for just no reason at all some days. You'll constantly be waiting for each new "milestone" with such excitement. Please, don't rush them. Hold her when you are certain you've held her for too long. Pick her up at night and just smell her sweet baby scent, kiss her cheeks. Soon she'll be 3 and she won't want kisses as much. She'll ask for her space. You'll long for more time together. Hold her now, as much as you can. It won't be long before there aren't any signs of baby left in her face, no matter how hard you search for them. It will hurt, but there is more joy to come.
Don't wait on pins and needles for her to learn to walk. Swearing that it will be "any day now". It will. And then you'll miss the days of seeing a tiny bottom scooting around the floor. When your second child comes along, you'll promise yourself that you'll pay closer attention and enjoy those little moments more, but again you'll find yourself excitedly waiting for what is next. You'll again miss those tiny baby days. Where do they even go? You'll spend so many nights asking yourself this very question. You'll never have the answer.
Before you know it you'll be halfway through your third and final pregnancy. Knowing that soon your pregnancy days will be behind you. You can't get those days back. You can close your eyes as much as you want and relive them, but once they are gone, they are gone forever. Please, appreciate these moments. Breathe them in and memorize them. You will desperately long for time to slow, but you'll find that the older you get, the quicker your babies grow and that time is precious. So precious.
Over the next four years you will know joy that you could never have imagined. You will have your patience tested continually. Dig deep for more, hold those tiny hands when the days seem exhausting and you feel defeated. Never wish a day away, no matter how trying it was. There are memories in them all. Take too many pictures, read that book as many times as they ask, play peek-a-boo as much as you can, answer the questions that they've asked you over and over again, rock them just a little longer. I promise you, you won't regret it.
Don't rush these days. There will come a day when you will wish you could rewind them.
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